воскресенье, 31 января 2010
Автор: bbgon
Название: Telling the Truth
О ком: Билл/Леонард
О чем: Билл любит говорить в интервью о том, как он любит Леонарда. Помните то, со съемок Т.Дж. Хукера? (Если я что-то напутала с хронологией, сделайте вид, что вы не заметили, ок?)))“I love him. I’ve loved him for years. I had to fight it. We both are married, people just can’t know that”, he says and laughs. And the interviewer laughs, because Bill is being oh so funny again.
Well, Bill always knew that the best jokes are those which are true.
читать дальшеThe first time he told Leonard he loved him was on a Christmas party during their third Star Trek season. He was a little drunk – but not that drunk that he didn’t realize what he was doing – and his marriage had fallen apart, and maybe one of the reasons was that he couldn’t keep Leonard out of his head while spending time with his wife, and the show was already sentenced, and it meant they didn’t have much time left, and Bill felt lonely, desperate and in need of comfort. So he just came up to Leonard and told him. Because he needed Leonard to know.
“I love you”.
Leonard stared at him, shocked, and when his lips started to form an annoyed “What?”, Bill suddenly realized that no, Leonard didn’t need to know. He quickly babbled something about how he loved working with Leonard, that’s what he meant, and loved the show, and the fellow actors, and it was a pity it was all done now. Leonard’s face relaxed, he nodded and then talked for a couple of minutes about his attitude towards the cancellation of Star Trek, while Bill thought that he’d tell him another time. Maybe.
The next time came more than ten years later. Bill was long over Leonard and that simple and silly feeling he had for him. It had been only admiration and unresolved problems with his wife which made him conceive something to Leonard at all. And so Bill believed until The Motion Picture happened.
There was Leonard again, he’d changed and yet he was still the same earnest and devoted person. Leonard just needed to be touched, and held, and hugged, and squeezed, and kissed, and a thousand more things which all Bill would have done. He only tried one hundredth of them, when Leonard started to dart away from his grip with an angry “Bill, keep your hands off me! You’re like an octopus!” But there was something in his tone or eyes, which gave Bill a hope that he wasn’t really annoyed, but just felt embarrassed and didn’t know how to react.
So Bill gave him a way out: he was allowed to hug Leonard, with more theatricality than before, and Leonard was allowed to scream and beg for help, and everyone laughed, and it was fun. When during one of those sessions Bill said “I love you”, it just went along with all the joking and fooling around.
After that Bill finally got the idea how he could say those words to Leonard – to the whole world actually – without any awkwardness. Make it a joke. Declare it, loudly, openly – and laugh first. Say whatever you feel, kiss him, cuddle him in front of everyone, just watch out not to get too serious.
And so Bill did. And so he does.
But one day he gets tired of it. While they are sitting comfortably on the terrace of Bill’s house, he says, thoughtfully:
“You know, Leonard, I love you”.
“I know”.
“Not like…” he wants to explain. “Really”.
“I know, Bill”, Leonard repeats. “I’m not dumb”.
He takes Bill’s hand.
Is there anything they don't have, Bill wonders. They have more than forty years of their own story to remember; in people’s eyes they’ll always belong together – far more inseparable than any married couple; they have sunny days and peaceful sunsets like this one; and they’ve always had and always will have a friend to rely on. Maybe that’s what happiness is like?
fin
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31.01.2010 в 23:14очень-очень здорово
Билл такой трогательный)
и Лен <3
just felt embarrassed and didn’t know how to react. aww
There was Leonard again, he’d changed and yet he was still the same earnest and devoted person. Leonard just needed to be touched, and held, and hugged, and squeezed, and kissed, and a thousand more things which all Bill would have done.
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31.01.2010 в 23:19-
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31.01.2010 в 23:24just felt embarrassed and didn’t know how to react.
на собственном опыте, можно сказать
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31.01.2010 в 23:27И вот эта вся штука просто настолько здорово!
Leonard just needed to be touched, and held, and hugged, and squeezed, and kissed, and a thousand more things which all Bill would have done. He only tried one hundredth of them, when Leonard started to dart away from his grip with an angry “Bill, keep your hands off me! You’re like an octopus!” But there was something in his tone or eyes, which gave Bill a hope that he wasn’t really annoyed, but just felt embarrassed and didn’t know how to react.
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31.01.2010 в 23:27Билл ведь, по сути, получил, чего желал. Леонард всю жизнь был с ним рядом, знал, что тот его любит, позволял творить над собой всякое, вроде публичных поцелуев в ушко)). Ну, разве что они не были любовниками? Может быть, оно им и не надо было...
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31.01.2010 в 23:29спасибо)
было приятно описывать то, что Билл обычно делает с Леонардом))
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01.02.2010 в 00:41-
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01.02.2010 в 00:47спасибо)